When one part of my life is falling apart (currently my job), everything else seems to follow it. I'm 100% unsatisfied with my job, and although I'm currently looking for something else, I'm wondering if maybe my unhappiness there is pulling me down in my cycling. I define myself by my career, my hobbies, my successes, my failures. I can't help it. I'm thinking this may be the reason behind my lack of motivation in cycling. :crosses fingers: PLEASE, LET ME FIND A NEW JOB SOON!!! :)
I went through the same thing with horseback riding. I was going through a lot of crap in high school (teenage angst, you know), and lost my motivation to ride. A friend of mine had asked why it bothers me that maybe I just don't want to ride, and I really don't know the answer to that. Horses are just a part of my life and a part of who I am, and it bothers me when I start to lose that. Same with cycling, apparently.
Anyway. I distinctly remember last year having a couple of rides so bad and discouraging that I was fighting tears. I'm glad to know I'm not alone, though! I was reading a fellow female cyclist's blog today, and she's also had days like that. I'm doing the ladies ride tonight, and I'm doing another group ride tomorrow night, so hopefully this will jump-start my social-cycling life.
On the plus side: my parents are coming into town!!! :) I'm planning on taking a couple of much-needed days off. We can go have dinner by the lake, maybe Iguana Grille, have some breakfast burritos at Rudy's (though the ones by Michael's house are much better), and some nachos at Jardin Corona! No margaritas for me... I'm going to try not to drink as much anymore.
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