Well, here I am. Freaking exhausted. It took us about 15 hours to drive here... we finally got in around 2:30 this morning. All I wanted to do was crawl into bed, but we had to introduce the dogs to each other. The dogs seem to get along great, but Michael also has two cats. At first, Jaiden was kind of afraid of them (Michael's bigger cat Zero let Jaiden know he wouldn't be screwed with), but I think Jaiden and Harley, one of Michael's dogs, ganged up on Zero and attacked him. I heard snarling, turned around and saw Jaiden and Harley corner Zero. I yelled and Zero took off into a corner that the dogs couldn't get to. I've never seen Zero run from anything. He didn't get hurt or anything, but he was scared. Michael said he'd never seen Zero like that. :( I feel guilty... I've tried to establish dominance over Jaiden, but I'm no dog trainer. I'm thinking about getting one just so we can figure out how to control this whole pack mentality these dogs have going on.
We just got done unloading the truck. My stuff has filled up an entire spare bedroom. I'm trying not to make myself too comfortable--if I do, it'll just make it harder to leave when I find an apartment. Speaking of that, I guess the property management company I'm using to rent out my house said he's been getting a ton of calls about it (YAY!), so hopefully it'll be rented out soon and I can move out of here. It's too much too soon to be living with Michael, and he understands and agrees.
I completely underestimated how sad I would be to leave. If I could just pack up my family and ship them to Austin, it would be so much better. ;) It's odd things that set me off, too... like going grocery shopping or having to reset the radio channels in my car. I guess by not resetting the channels, it makes it somehow less permanent. Or the other night, I was laying in my bed at home and I heard a car driving down the street and realized I would never hear the same sounds again--and it made me cry. Yeah, just weird things like that. Anyway, talking to my parents actually seems to make me cry more than anything. I mean, I've been gone a little over 24 hours and I miss my family already! How crazy is that? I'm sure this will pass, but it's hard knowing that I'll never be able to just go out with my sister and brother-in-law on a whim or drive over to my parents' house "just to say hi". I mean, yeah, I realized all this before I left, but I didn't realize how much it would affect me once I was gone.
Oh well... I'll have to get over it. :) One of Michael's friends gave me a bottle of wine and a card saying she looked forward to spending time with me. That was really nice. I start work tomorrow, so hopefully I'll be able to make some friends there. Plus, the dressage community down here is huge! They get all kinds of big name trainers in for clinics and everything. I just have to figure out which barn I want to ride at! :)
Oh, and I just looked in a mirror... oy.
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