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Sitting here, with a glass of wine, I realize I kind of miss my life in Austin (the part after Michael and I broke up, I mean). I think I'll always have fond memories of that time in my life. I was independent and free to do whatever the hell I wanted. After being there for seven months, I was finally starting to build solid friendships, especially with the girls at the tack shop. I had a road cycling group that I was riding with, along with a mountain bike group, and they were such a fun group of people. I was working at a tack shop making new friends, and riding a horse that I really loved. I miss Riley (the horse I was riding).

I have none of that now. My life feels like it's moving in a more positive, goal-oriented direction, although I'm still somewhat unsure of the path I'm on... and I have no life outside of what my boyfriend and I do (and cycling, of course, which I normally do alone--and I'm okay with that). I haven't heard yet about the volunteer position at the aquarium, but I should know something by Saturday I'm guessing. I haven't heard back yet about the job at Penn.

I recognize that moving out of Omaha was a good thing for me, but just as I did in Austin, I sometimes wonder, "WTF am I doing here?" I know life is what you make of it, and I've been trying. I see the positive aspects of Philly, and I do enjoy living here (though it doesn't help that the cost of living is so high here... cheapest uni is $10k, gas is expensive, groceries are expensive.) There's so much to do. I'm just having a hard time figuring out what to do. If I were single, I'd probably venture out more and try to meet more people, but as it is...

Sigh. I'm entering a darker part of my life right now. That could be the wine speaking, though, lol. ;)

I was just reading back to my posts when I moved to Austin... what a trip. "Whataburger" LOL. Oh, and my measly 40 minute commute to work, which will turn into 60+min if I get this job at Penn. GAH. It'll be worth it, though. I think

I need to go on a bike ride.